Just keep walking...

How can people live with themselves when they hurt other people? I know personally I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders regardless if I am involved or not. But that is just me. I know that the rest of the world does not see things the way I do, but why does it seem like care and compassion is a evaporating quality nowadays?

True story. Back in April, Marianne and I were running to the mall and then to grab dinner. As we were walking into the mall we saw a Fresno Police Officer assault someone. We have no idea what happened before.. leading up to this incident.. but to an innocent bystander.. it looked like excessive force. There were a lot of people just standing around watching and talking about it.. I think we were all in disbelief... I called and filed a complaint.

That night a SGT called me back.. we started playing phone tag.. life happened and I figured it wasn't important. A couple of days ago a CPT called me.. then the SGT again.. phone tag begun. (I left messages telling them to call my house phone but they kept calling my cell phone) 9pm last night the SGT knocks on my door. He has reviewed the video tape, the statements and there are some things that make him question if the officer did infact use excessive force. So I gave my statement... and it's going to IA.

Marianne and I both got a lot of crap from friends and family because we said something. Well if it were you... wouldn't you hope that someone would have a voice for you? I do. Which is why I called. And it is exactly what I told the officer. I am sorry that my friends feel that maybe we were out of line.. but I personally couldn't sleep at night if I had just kept walking. Especially knowing what I know now.

So that brings me back to my original thought... why does it seem like I know 3245628043718718035781305780135135112 people.. and about 50 of them have care and compassion for others? Do I need to reevaluate my friendships? Do I just chalk it up to personality differences? Am I being too picky and expecting something that isn't possible like blood from a rock? Or does everyone else need to step it up a bit and stop caring only about themselves? I swear I feel like every rant in my life comes back to the same things. Selfish people. Self-centered people. I guess I should finish that with... lonely people.